“Haven’t you seen me sleep walking?”
“Haven’t you noticed me drifting?”
“Why am I feeling so guilty?”
“Why am I holding my breath?”
“Worried ‘bout everyone but me. And I just keep losing myself.”
“Won’t you read my mind, don’t you make me lie here and die here…”
| — | The Civil Wars |
I wonder how many people are hurt by “the church”. I wonder what is the difference in the number or people the church brings in versus the number of people the church pushes away.
How many Christians renounce their belief in Christ because other “Christians”, those that are supposed to be Christ-like are nothing like Him?
I know our walk with God is just that, OUR walk with GOD. No one else, but God. But it’s difficult when those you would expect to guide you towards Him, drag you down and almost make you feel worthless.
I pray that through my life and through my walk I NEVER do that.
I know I will mess up but God, please. I ask You that my life is a life that draws others to You and not away from You.
I pray that my heart, and the heart of those who have been hurts softens up, and those who have hurt others, myself included feel conviction.
Help us God. Help us be more like You.
Jesus guide me.
Holy Spirit lead me.
It’s weird listening to songs I used to “sing” or dedicate to the man of my dreams when I was 12 or 13 now that I’m older. That mystery man now has a face and it’s all coming together. Being engaged is the craziest roller coaster I’ve been in to date, but having moments like this when I can’t help but sit, breathe and be thankful that I found him makes it all worth it.
Thank you for that moment Mr. Brian McKnight. Your music will most definitely be played a whole lot on my wedding day.
